Doing things like facebook and using the internet was one thing. Facebook was just unresponsive and stale. It’s nice to see updates and such, as if it were some news, but it wasn’t the real thing. It’s a fake, clean environment. Nobody is going to post a horrible picture of themselves; there’s always a tinge of coolness. I just felt very… competitive. I felt like I had to put something clever or interesting in my status. I also felt like I had to be better than the people on my news feed. Like maybe it would be nice to win the lottery or something. I think online gaming could also apply in this case as well. You “use” people as your opponents and don’t give a care about them after playing with them. I think it’s just a big, giant system where people use each other as play things.
Then there’s meeting with real people. This was great because it was so natural. I liked seeing their faces, their expressions and emotions. You could smell their breath, hear their voices and get pissed off at them. It’s nice doing this form and it felt good when everyone was being nice and cooperative. I liked being able to hang out, whether it was eating or playing games with them. At the same time, I felt that the activities that I did here were more limited than being online. Online, I could play lots of games, but in real life, it was hard meeting specific kinds of people to do stuff that you wanted. So if I wanted to play basketball, it wouldn’t happen unless I found the right people. On a video game, you are automatically matched to gamers. But then again, in real life, you appreciate more of the subtle things.
Overall, I think both had their goods and bads. I think being offline is more freer and feels more accomplishing. Being online makes me feel that all my energy was spent on a computer, but the net physical result is that I’m sitting on my butt, just clicking my mouse, sort of what I’m doing now. Even going online, we still need to find the person physically before we add them on facebook. And when we add strangers on facebook or talk to them, they have to have something redeeming, say beauty or fame. I think that in real life, we meet people of all sorts and types. Meeting people definitely was the more challenging and rewarding of the two. I would like to meet people more, but some people I just can’t mesh with or do not talk to me and other times, people are too busy or don’t want to hang out.